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I don't like it when people decide to call me one minute after I just sent them a text. The reason I texted you is because I don’t have the energy for a phone call rn. Can’t just you answer the text like a normal human being or at least first ask if I feel like talking on the phone.

Actually only one person I know do this, even though I’ve told him not to. He’s quite needy too so I need a little more energy to talk to thim. Our phone calls are always the same: he spends an hour telling me all about him and his life and feelings and never once ask me about mine. It’s draining.

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I was recently excessively cursing at my sister without real reason and now I feel like I'm the most unlovable person on the planet.

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I love my mamma so much. Jag älskar min mamma såå mycket. Om jag bara kunde vinna på lotto så jag kunde skämma bort henne något så vansinnigt.

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I need to start working on breaking down my own walls so as not to end up spending too much of my life alone, incapable of relating to and connecting with anyone. It seems as if the majority of people have such an easy time giving in to loving and I'm so envious of them.

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A few years ago when my dog died, I cried rivers. But when my best friend, my best friend of 10 years, came to console me, I hastily got myself together and stood tall within seconds of hearing she was coming over. I have no clue why I just came to remember this, but it reminds me of how I've never allowed myself to be vulnerable in front of anyone except for my mother and my sister.